thoughts

"You can never have too much sky. You can fall asleep and wake up drunk on sky, and sky can keep you safe when you are sad. 
Here there is too much sadness and not enough sky.Butterflies are too few and so are flowers and most things that are beautiful.
Still,we take what we can get and make the best of. "
- from the book House on mango street
For some time now I've been thinking of posting these pictures, but they never fit to any post. Those pictures were taken back in July. Summertime freedom, endless nights. I've already forgotten what freedom feels like, partly. I've been felling a bit down lately. As there has been a lot happening . My escapes have been hot baths, running, just watching different movies & tv-shows,reading poems and quotes, eating chocolate<3  also just chilling with friends. My fall break turned out tragical, still wondering how a relaxed evening with friends end in a cruel way. Someone, a friend losing a life. This is so personal and  I don't know why I'm writing this but the thing is I can't keep it in. But this is my diary with my thoughts, my pain and also my happiness.

My appreciation towards my family just keeps growing.
Dad took the next flight to Turku and also Mom spent a night here. It was lovely to sleep beside mom. Walk the city streets, eat at a restaurant but the most valuable thing to be together and close,
As my classmate said:' Family is like a team, everyone is is needed. Now  I really don't know how people survive without siblings. Older sister and brothers who take care who are there to listen no matter what the problems are. Just be lazy and annoying at times and still being to  hug them anytime. To live under the same roof not alone, but with part of family when the rest are 150km away. Or Nick on the other side of the globe.

It's important to value life and remember that this day can be your last. Before I knew that but now I have experienced it and it's become  real. You may say reflectors are stupid, but they can truly save your own life or someones you love.
Showing  appreciation and not taking things for granted is important as one day you won't have it. 
Like the old quote goes everyday may not be good but there is something good in every day.


'My sadness is not a cut for you to bandage,
 and it is not a bruise for you to kiss,

I am not waiting for you to save me.
I am hoping you will love me while 
I rescue myself.'


Take care my loves xoxo